How soon we forget...

I was thinking this morning of how tough it can be to feel God's presense in the tough times. How easily faith can be tested...
Evan, last night, was complaining that he couldn't see God and was just a bit annoyed when I told him that God is all around us but we cannot see him (not in 4yr old terms anyway). Then I though about how all day I had been feeling anxious and stressed rather than basking in the love and care that God indeed provides. The same God who brought Sam into my life...who heard my prayer when my grief was so heavy that I thought I couldn't bear it...who blessed me with an amazingly beautiful baby boy a year later and then welcomed me with open arms as I accepted Jesus into my heart...the same God who has carried us back from the brink of financial disaster again and again...who blessed us with a beautiful daughter and a job that allowed me to stay home with her and her brother for the last two years...and most amazingly touched my precious Manny's heart and body and healed him.

It's quite a list. And for each blessing I listed there are more than a hundred that I did not (lest my blog runs on the way that some do :). So I think whenever I am tempted to wallow in anxiety and stress, I will visit this post and remember that God is my father, he loves me and he most definitley has my back.